A few things...

I woke up this morning to a dream that had me on a vacation at the beach. And then reality hit me and it was time to get ready for work. And oh what I day it turned out to be.


These past few days were filled with unexpected moments, most of which deal with someone getting hurt or not feeling well. While my mom is recovering from her back spasms she now is wearing a boot, due to a little tumble she had at my grandmother's house. My grandmother is now in the hospital with legs swollen to the size of Texas. And me? Well...I'm hanging in there.


I've been thinking about a lot of things lately. The first thought is about getting older. What is lame is that when you get older, those around you do too. I swear I was supposed to come before my brother...just a few years older and it would be all good. Alas, here I am as the young one of whatever group I am with. It's also hard seeing those you love become more dependent on others to take care of them. I was thinking back to the time when my grandma would come and check on me while I stayed home from school because I was sick. Now, it's me stopping by and taking care of her and her needs everyday. Makes me sad...but I am grateful that I have the opportunity to serve her. Looking on the bright side is a "must" these days.

I started a full time job on Friday. How do people do this most of their life? Like seriously, you get up and do the same thing. Every. Day. The monotony of it all drives me a little crazy. That's the breaks I guess. If I want to play hard, I have to work hard.

Aside from all the complaining, I must say why I smile along the way, especially these past few days. It is because of my friend that makes me laugh regardless of the situation. It is the friend that loves me even with my imperfections and lame attitudes that I get when I'm stressed. It's those moments where you know that you have a friend who will be there. No matter what. It is also the times where you feel so tired and worn, and then you remember the blessings in your life. You remember why you're here and the potential you have. And that...that makes all the difference.

Sheri Dew once said that "Our spirits long for us to remember the truth about who we are, because the way we see ourselves, our sense of identity, affects everything we do. It affects the way we behave, the way we respond to uncertainty, the way we see others, the way we feel about ourselves, and the way we make choices. It affects the very way we live our lives."

I'm going to try to remember that this week.


And if you want some inspiration, read this. http://ce.byu.edu/cw/womensconference/archive/2001/dew_sheri.html