Before I Knew It

Let's face it. I'm horrible at keeping up with a journal, diary, and yes, even this blog. I'll probably regret it when I'm old and I want to reflect back on the younger times of my life. Alas, here I am trying to catch up on these past few weeks.

So work is coming along. Full time jobs are just no fun at all. But, if I want money then I suppose that means work. What a vicious cycle! My family is doing well, I miss my brother quite a bit. Part of me wishes that he would come back home and go to school here in OK. Why Utah? I'm still trying to figure out why Jordan and I seem to be attracted to Utah schools. Don't get me wrong, BYU is great--I've had so many wonderful experiences and have made lasting friendships. But home is still home, and the people here are enough for me to stay here and go to school.
As for that summer list...I've worked on a few things. I am practicing the uke almost every day and have mastered a few chord progressions and songs. I played Ultimate Frisbee this weekend and it felt soo good. Reminded me of the good ol' days where we would play at least once a week and I would always come away with some bruise or scrape. As for camping/ fishing well I'm saving that for the month of June.

Did I mention that I love summer? It's great. I also love Oklahoma sunsets. In fact, I want to go on this Oklahoma River Sunset Cruise sometime this summer...check it out.

www.oklahomarivercruises.com

I should also mention that I might have applied to OU. Okay, I did. But everything is still up in the air. I really like the Public Relations program at OU....so we will see. Wish me luck!

Storms a comin'

Yesterday marked the first day of stormy/ tornado season for Oklahoma. It was crazy! Luckily we were okay, minus a little hail damage. But that is much better than losing a home like some members of our church did. It was comforting to see on th news coverage members of the church already cleaning up the damage. They seem to be good about that here. One other reason why I should live in Oklahoma :)

I say one other reason because it seems to be a constant thought in my mind. I think my heart belongs in Oklahoma. But Utah is great too. Decision, decisions. We will see how the summer plays out. As for now, it's summer time! BBQs, swimming, hanging out....good times.

In fact...I'm going to start a list of what I want to do this summer. Here it goes...

-Go Fishing
-Go Camping
-Play a few games of Ultimate Frisbee
-Master the ukulele

...that's all I got now. Any ideas?

One by One.

Sometimes I wish this life came with the option of checking yourself out. Wouldn't it be nice to pull yourself out of circulation for just a bit and let everything else around you just function without you? This week seems to be the week of all weeks. I'm starting to get the swing of things at work, but it's so hectic and frustrating at times. I guess that seems to be the norm in an office setting...
My grandmother is in the hospital for a few days, due to an infection in her legs. I stayed with her this evening and took care of her the best I could. I find myself so worked up/stressed and concerned when I'm with her. I just want her to be okay, to make things better than they are. I've caught myself reminiscing about the good ol' days just a little too much. What I realized is that all we have is today to make the best of things. So, that's my plan. Just take it one day at a time.
Aside from life's crazy twists and turns, I wound up so lost tonight it wasn't even funny! Thank goodness for my Maps App on that blasted iPhone. I swear it works perfectly for everything except as a phone! That feeling of having no idea where you are, and it being completely dark and eerie outside is the worst. But then I found my way back and the tenseness began to ease. And while driving home, I thought about in ones life how hard it would be to become so lost, caught in darkness, and unable to realize where you even are. But the best thing is that there's a way to find where you are and get back on track. That, my friends, is the Gospel of Jesus Christ. How sweet the blessings are in the gospel. You never have to worry about becoming lost. It'll always direct you where you need to go. And that's pretty awesome, if I say so myself.

So...tomorrow is another day and things will work out just fine. I just gotta keep on smiling!

A few things...

I woke up this morning to a dream that had me on a vacation at the beach. And then reality hit me and it was time to get ready for work. And oh what I day it turned out to be.


These past few days were filled with unexpected moments, most of which deal with someone getting hurt or not feeling well. While my mom is recovering from her back spasms she now is wearing a boot, due to a little tumble she had at my grandmother's house. My grandmother is now in the hospital with legs swollen to the size of Texas. And me? Well...I'm hanging in there.


I've been thinking about a lot of things lately. The first thought is about getting older. What is lame is that when you get older, those around you do too. I swear I was supposed to come before my brother...just a few years older and it would be all good. Alas, here I am as the young one of whatever group I am with. It's also hard seeing those you love become more dependent on others to take care of them. I was thinking back to the time when my grandma would come and check on me while I stayed home from school because I was sick. Now, it's me stopping by and taking care of her and her needs everyday. Makes me sad...but I am grateful that I have the opportunity to serve her. Looking on the bright side is a "must" these days.

I started a full time job on Friday. How do people do this most of their life? Like seriously, you get up and do the same thing. Every. Day. The monotony of it all drives me a little crazy. That's the breaks I guess. If I want to play hard, I have to work hard.

Aside from all the complaining, I must say why I smile along the way, especially these past few days. It is because of my friend that makes me laugh regardless of the situation. It is the friend that loves me even with my imperfections and lame attitudes that I get when I'm stressed. It's those moments where you know that you have a friend who will be there. No matter what. It is also the times where you feel so tired and worn, and then you remember the blessings in your life. You remember why you're here and the potential you have. And that...that makes all the difference.

Sheri Dew once said that "Our spirits long for us to remember the truth about who we are, because the way we see ourselves, our sense of identity, affects everything we do. It affects the way we behave, the way we respond to uncertainty, the way we see others, the way we feel about ourselves, and the way we make choices. It affects the very way we live our lives."

I'm going to try to remember that this week.


And if you want some inspiration, read this. http://ce.byu.edu/cw/womensconference/archive/2001/dew_sheri.html

Time is of the Essence

So I've been telling myself that I need to start a blog. And on this lovely morning I created one. I hope to accomplish some things with this blog.

-Create more memories.
-Write about them.
-And, recognize the good things in life.

The challenge is on! More to come...