Oh yeah...school started.

So about that last post. You remember how that particular movie I saw motivated me to write again? Well it just so happens that I watched that movie again. So here I am. Writing a post that is long overdue.

Being back in Utah has its perks. But let me tell you...leaving Oklahoma was hard. REALLY hard. But I think Heavenly Father is helping me understand an important principle.

Sacrifice.

You see, to sacrifice is to give up something valuable or precious, often with the intent of accomplishing a greater purpose or goal.

This is my last year at BYU. I'll be graduating either next April or June. Can we say weird? You're probably wondering how four years flew by so quickly. 

It didn't.

I'm finishing in three. Which is crazy. And exciting. And scary. But throughout this whole process, Heavenly Father has been cheering me on, and has given little indicators that He is fully aware of the happenings of my life.

So I guess the purpose of me writing tonight is to say this: When Heavenly Father prompts you to do something that may seem next to impossible, do it. Make the sacrifice and do it. Because it will always be for the good of our souls and salvation.

The week of change.

I watched a movie tonight that made me laugh, cry, and re-energized to write again. I miss this...this blog really is an outlet for me to release all the random thoughts no one really cares to listen to that are running around in my head. 

So...Let's talk about making choices. Hard choices. Choices that require sacrifice.

I don't always like making them. In fact, taking the easier road is something I probably do too often. But this week is about change. I'm changing the way I eat, and making more healthy choices (which by no means is an easy thing to do). I'm choosing to be more spiritual by reading my scriptures and praying daily. I'm choosing to get focused again on school (when all I'd really like to do is play).

Like I said, making hard choices isn't my favorite thing. But I came across a quote this week that I'm constantly reminding myself of: I like that.

"Happy are those who dream dreams and are ready to pay the price to make them come true." -Leon J. Suenes

  

And this week as I am making choices, good choices, I will remember that paying this small price will help my dreams come to fruition. And oh, how happy I will be.

The Bachelorette...Oklahoma Style.

This blog really covers all aspects of my life. Most blogging "experts" say to focus on one area of your life.

But I've never been one to do things the simple way.

So instead of talking about work and school....let's talk about something different.

Boys. Men.

Can I just say that there is quite the number of worthy, handsome gentleman here in the great state of Oklahoma? I mean seriously, I told a friend that it feels like I'm on an episode of the Bachelorette, and I have no idea how to handle it! You would think living in the land of milk and honey (Utah) I would have found that Mr. Right awhile ago....but I don't think my husband is at BYU. At least that's what I tell people. But I somewhat believe that. And feel that.

And I also believe he's somewhere closer than I think. The only problem is, I leave in about five weeks. My heart usually breaks a little every time I have to move back. But this time it's practically killing me.

You see, there's a boy who's caught my eye. Don't get too excited...we aren't seriously dating. The whole long distance relationship isn't his cup of tea. So we are just having fun and seeing where the next few weeks will take us. But part of me wonders what would happen if I stayed here. Would things be different?

All I know is that I need to place my trust in the Lord, and whatever the outcome is..I know it's right. Because when man plans, God laughs. But when your plans are God's plans....great things will come of it.

I believe that. I feel that. I know that. 

Things I've learned so far.

So I've been at this internship for about five weeks now, and I've realized a few things about how I work, who I work well with, what people expect of you as a PR/ Marketing professional...and more. 

Warning: While this list may seem a little negative, it's not pinpointing the organization I work for. This is just a general observation of my experiences thus far.

• Don’t ever work with all girls if you can help it.
• Believe in what you are advocating/ representing, otherwise you will have a hard time performing your job well.
• Interns are always the lowest on the totem pole. Always.
• If you and your boss don’t really get along, you’re kind of screwed.
• But even when your boss doesn’t like you, suck it up.
• We have friends because those we work with usually cannot be trusted.
• Public relations can mean everything or absolutely nothing a company. Pick one who thinks you’re an asset.

On that note, Why did I choose a profession that isn’t seen as “necessary” when companies start down sizing? So lame. My professors always told me that we as PR professionals would need to prove how valuable we are to an organization. It makes sense, seeing as how the art of communication and building relationships is one of the hardest tasks us humans do.

So here's my conclusion from all of this:

I think I’m meant to be a full time mom. 

You're probably thinking...seriously, Jessica? You're going to school to be a mom? Uhh well, in a way I am. I'm learning things about myself that in no other would have happened. And the skills I am learning in my educational pursuits will also be of use for my future family.

So yeah....I said it. And I'm ok with that.